Saturday, September 3, 2011

Turning 30

I turn 30 tomorrow. I'm not sure why I'm feeling like this is a big deal, but I am. I've been reflecting quite a bit about it. I've also been looking forward from it. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel in my 30's. When I turned 20, I had so many possibilities in front of me...graduating college, going to grad school, getting a job, getting my own place, growing up, figuring out who I am. I knew that my 20's held the promise of adulthood. And now, I guess I'm an adult, although I still feel like I'm just 17. I have graduated college, graduated grad school, have worked for 6 years and am starting my 7th year, have a car, have an apartment, pay bills... I guess I just don't know what to expect in my 30's. I have hopes, but I don't want to jinx myself.

Over the past several months, I've been thinking of all of the things that I've done and experienced in my 30 years. I've been to 25 states (actually 28, but I'm not counting airports or states that I didn't really get a feel for), been in 3 countries, and have flown only 3 trips. I've seen both the Pacific and the Atlantic Ocean and have seen 4 Great Lakes. I've been to weddings and funerals. I've held babies and comforted the elderly. I've learned how to walk, talk, read, write, drive, use a computer, play the drums, and have learned more than I can possibly remember. I've had friends and enemies. I've loved, cried, laughed and hoped.

I've also been thinking about what life could hold for the next 30 years (yep, just like the Tim McGraw song...maybe that's why I'm thinking about turning 30). Most things I'm too afraid to say outloud for fear that they won't come true. But, in my heart, I have dreams.

So, here's to the next 30 years and the dreams that will be fulfilled!

Friday, August 12, 2011


Sunset. Dusk. To say this is my favorite time of day is a gross understatement. Summer sunset drives on back country roads are what calm me, ground me, center me. To experience one of these drives is for one to begin to understand my soul. The sight surpasses description. The sounds are soothing. The smell, the smell transports me back to a much simpler time of sitting on a front porch swing with someone who was very important to me. I feel this time of day with every fiber of my being. I feel it so deep down in my soul that if it would cease to exist I fear that I would shrivel up and die. Dusk. The time when the world calms. The day is finished, no need to rush off anywhere. The time to pause, reflect, consider. The time to realize that there is something bigger, that you are a part of something bigger, something outside of the chaos man creates. Words, pictures cannot do justice to this display. Images, sounds will be kept in the recesses of the mind and soul and used when tired and weary.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

A little recap...

Well, I guess that November was a while ago, huh?!? Apparently I was busier than I thought. Or, maybe I just neglected blogging.

Anyway, I've now finished another school year and am in the middle of summer vacation. While this past school year started out better because we had 4 therapists instead of 2, it just ended badly. In the end, everyone was creating drama about everyone else and now I'm asking myself who I should really trust in the department. The economic situation in the state has caught up to the school districts and the district has cut back on a lot of things. Luckily, the worst of it was just shuffling people around and only laying off a handful of staff/teachers. Although, they keep telling us that this next year will be the worst of it. Right now, I'm thankful to have a job and will continue to work on building up my savings and paying off debt in case things do get worse. This coming year, the district is opening up a new building that will house all of our 4, 5, and 6th grade students. So, this means I get a new building and have to set it up when I go back in a few weeks. In addition to a new building, we all moved rooms in the building I am currently in, so I get to set up another whole room too. But, at least I'm now out of a closet sized room and into an actual classroom. I'm looking forward to the next school year and hopefully pulling everyone together in the department. I'm already brainstorming ways to do this. We'll see what happens.

In other news, I've been going to a Catholic Church for about 8 or 9 months. I started to go because I've always been kind of curious about the Catholic Faith. I've found it to be humble and reverent and actually kind of refreshing. After being submerged in the "contemporary" wave of churches in college, it's kind of nice to kind of get back to the basics. I'd love to know any thoughts anyone has on the Catholic Church. I'm so new at all of it and I'm still forming my opinion about it. I've read a book on it, but it seemed to be more about how the Catholic Church was the original church and the "right" way. I'd like to find more information about their beliefs. We'll see where it all leads. I just want to make sure that I'm doing it for the right reasons and not because my good friends at work are Catholic or because I'm just church shopping.

My family is doing pretty well. My mom seems to have improved, although she still has a hard time getting up from a chair. She has fallen 5 times in the past year, which has all of us scared. My dad turned 80 in December and has good days and bad days, I guess like we all do.

Well, I guess that's a pretty good recap. Now I'll have to just keep up on blogging.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

What?!? The last time I posted was November? Guess I need to get back to blogging... Soon, I promise.